Finding a Place for Space

​So many of us, let's be honest- are done with zoom gatherings. I get it. I did multiple online training/workshops over the past two years and I am tired of showing up on zoom to take in, yet again, more information. Not to mention: the masking, the anxiety of being with new people...yes even virtually. I'd much rather be in "process mode" or at least a soft space to drop into. Truthfully, that space looks a lot like alone-time! Or doing my own thing, carving out a self-processing journey. I loved having the right support of a guide, but I require lots of space to feel out my own intuition, senses, ideas, creativity, knowing, wisdom, deep truths.

I bet it's my age. Or could it be we're all overly saturated with information because it's so readily available at our fingertips and in an instant?

When I was in my teens, before the internet, going to the library or a local bookstore was how I sought out wild topics of interest. Because I'm GenX, I remember when the internet became a "thing", but there was also the fact that we were poor and access to a computer did not happen until my 20's. I remember joining a correspondence course to learn about a very taboo topic at the time: witchery! Shortly after, I enrolled into a "Goddess-studies" correspondence school and took my journey through the traditional year and a day to become Priestess through email projects, reading required texts and "email check-ins with the High Priestess. I was young and wouldn't grasp the role of Priestess until my 30's. In there somewhere, during that time, I also experienced multiple hardships that broke me open not to mention all the traumas experienced in childhood rushing through those broken-open floodgates. So...I was learning about all the things I needed the most. Of course, you know- the healing journey is an ongoing one. I'm still learning all the time. I continue to gather tools and practices that continue to help me "become" more and more, to go within, to deepen, to clear the waters, to gently mend and renew.

Eventually, I found a teacher through some extensive website searches for local energy healing teachers in my area. I finally decided to contact a woman that was offering Reiki and energy healing classes. After an interesting, and quite magical exchange- I knew working with her was a part of my path unfolding before me. She did workshops out of her home in very small intimate groups and for the next 11+ years I "apprenticed" with her and learned/healed so much.

One of the things that I feel we may be losing to the fast-paced, diy soul-work, quick-study-kinda-thing is the slower process needed to not only integrate the teachings that we're learning, but to also remember what's already with us, within our bones and soul. That requires nurturance, patience, space.

​When journeying through a learning process: slow, steady, and most often repetitious self-study and inquiry is so necessary to fully Become (embody). It takes time and practice to "feel" (experience) what we know. To speak or share what we've already run through our bodies and to make sense of it.

I'm not against being self-taught or self-initiated in any way because I have first-hand experience with this being a big part of my trauma healing recovery. I had much to reclaim and rewrite for myself. By myself. With tending and tapping into my soul-knowing. That's important stuff gained from very hard experiences.